Reflections

Goodness the heat today was intense. I'll be sleeping the rest of the summer in my underwear and no sheets at this rate lol.

Work was low key today. I attended a meeting, which was interesting because the presenter was one of the developer guys, and he reminded me of my step dad...the way he looks and talks. I see him as professional right now, but I can see him being awkward too. He was sporting a belly, khaki shorts, socks, and clogs. Anyways, after the meeting I figured I should crack down and finish the rest of my administrative stuff by early this week. So I looked up procedures and sent out requests and gave myself a 5 minute internet break every other hour or so. I got asked to grab lunch three times before I figured it was a sign and agreed to meet some people from the blue buildings down at the cafeteria. I notice that during lunch time in big groups of people, the conversation tends to be about the company (whether it's gossip, jokes, or ideas), sports and movies, and the weather. I'd pretty much had coffee and gummy worms for breakfast, so I made it up with bananas, apricots, pears, and oranges for the rest of the day. I gotta eat all those fruits I bought before they go bad!...and I have a TON. All for about eleven bucks.

Went back to work and did a lot of reading and research while waiting forever for more software to install (takes forever if you couldn't tell so far), then completed some configurations. I've been getting calls all week from company representatives. Too bad it wasn't two weeks ago since it would have been more convenient for me to be in SLO. Agilent called last Friday (the lady had called me a few weeks ago to recruit me and she was wondering if it was the same me lol), and Intuit called me today. I thought they'd contact you Russell lol. I got their information and payment over the phone, at my desk at IBM...she was mentioning that she was right over in Mountain View. Odd to think I'm in the same town as most of these companies now. Lockheed and Amgen just confirmed their attendance (yay!). And what else...oh yea 24 hour fitness gave me my lifetime membership back after terminating it without my knowledge (sweetness).

In other news, Mom's in New York. Pa's in New Jersey. Great Aunt Margaret's son just passed away on a train from a heart attack. That's so scary. She's the aunt that works as an usher on Broadway in case I'd mentioned it before. Pray for her, that's gotta be hard, losing a son so unexpectedly and randomly. No goodbyes. It'd be like you're perfectly healthy best friend or closest relative dying tomorrow...or I guess right now. Don't forget to tell them how much you care...every day.

I found a potential place to live next year on Highland. Not sure how that'll turn out because I may be competing with other people that the residents already know. I'm gonna go check it out and meet them on Wednesday. Oh yea, and I'm coming back to SLO on Wednesday for a meeting.

I hunted around town today looking for whatever and stopped at an REI. That place is so much fun to look around. Got my bike lights and backpack, then searched around for somewhere to eat and came across a Trader Joe's. I was close to one of the houses I had checked out before and considered calling them to go eat or watch a movie or something, but I decided to stick to my low key day and just get some more stuff done.

So now I'm home, chillaxin and waiting for Kim to call me at 10:30pm. The cats like me too much. They're always hanging out in here until I kick them out, but they're so cute...never lived with cats before.

Sigh, I got a few calls from people today asking how I've been. It's so nice to hear from all of you. :) I want to say great, but honestly, I'm not great. I'm not bad, but it's just that feeling that you don't mean anything, and the life you left just went on without you, not even knowing you're gone. And the life ahead...I don't know...I fit in fine, make new friends left and right, but it's like...I'm not as interested I guess? I miss my best friends. I still feel misplaced...out of place. And the only comforting thing is knowing that it won't last for long. It's only been a week, but feelings like these make time go by really slow. Writing comforts me, keeps me distracted, and helps me reflect on my day.