Once Again

As always it seems that so much has happened since my last post. School started for one. Between the time of my last post and school starting on September 17th (one week), I was in San Jose, drove down to San Luis Obispo to do some errands, pick up my Nano (green!), and watch some good tv shows with some good friends. On that same evening I found myself on the road again to Orange County where I proceeded to fall asleep promptly as soon as my head hit the pillow. I definitely don't seem to have a problem falling asleep these days...it's more of staying awake. I would love to sleep for an entire day...what a luxury. I'll treat myself to that soon enough lol. From there I spent a good 30 hours at my Dad's house cleaning and sorting through things. This was over about...two days...and then I drove back up to SLO to prepare for WoW (in which I find that all our booth stuff is locked in the hangar with a key we can't find). Fantastical isn't it? WoW happened without too much excitement out of the ordinary. It was definitely cool, but I'd done this kind of stuff for years now.

A weekend to hang out, do administrative stuff, look for housing, do some hiking and have a lot of home cooked meals (and going out to eat) with friends passed by at a decent rate...being alert and active every second of the day makes every day long and drawn out. That was just one week. Then school started and shit really hit the fan. Guess I should call it more like...ice cream. It definitely hit the fan, but it wasn't that bad. It's like life got insanely busy, but I almost enjoyed it...somewhat. It was balanced out with lunch and ice cream friend dates and dinners and a lot of just hanging out in good company.

The work I do is a lot of administrative work and management for clubs. School is tough and the classes put me to work on any free time I have...but I work with a good crowd. I found a place to live and it's gonna take some work and getting used to, but it's an improvement over time (fixer upper house...and not even mine lol).

I did go up to San Jose on a Friday afternoon and left at 6am the next day back to San Luis Obispo. SWE better love me...although they probably are shaking their heads that I went up to San Jose at all. I needed my Fish! Ah well I got to see good friends.

But enough of what I've done. My schedule is filled to the brim for the most part. Plus I got the Sun Microsystems internship which I'm way stoked about. Interestingly enough they pay me more per hour than IBM did...shweetness. I'm nervous though cause it will involve public speaking, but that's half the reason that I wanted the job...good practice.

What are my thoughts for the day? I do realize that I cannot seem to empathize with people who feel sorry for themselves and put themselves down. I just don't understand why they do it. I can empathize and feel inspired by someone who had a tough past, but is working to improve and be happy with himself (ie happy with himself and not based on what people say), but I just don't feel much of anything to someone who tells me how depressing their life and their past is. I try to help though...think of the positive things in your life. We have so much to be thankful for even when it seems everything is going wrong. I may not have a bed to sleep on, but I have a roof over my head. I may not have the mattress under me, but I've got a sleeping bag and a nice carpet. It shouldn't have to be something that you have to analyze to think over and go through, but just...there.

Anyways, it's getting late. I think I'm showing sick symptoms, but hopefully it's all just mental. I have a stuffy nose and my head is a little cloudy and my throat has gone dry, but maybe it's because my lifestyle is taking a toll on me right now. I think that once I get settled into my place that I can finally step back and breathe. Then...I'll sleep for an entire day. :)

Homelessness

Ah to be homeless. I must say it makes time fly by faster than you can imagine. And it makes for minimal down time which can make any person go crazy. To not impose is to not over extend your stay at any one place...which makes living moment to moment a skill of communication, poise, and organization. And it also becomes a game of who you know. And you find out who your real friends are. :)

So that's been me. I've had minimal down time, and have rarely stayed in one place during the day for more than a few hours...with the exception of times of sleeping. Can't say I've got all the skills down, but I manage to get by, get things done, and have a little bit too much fun along the way. I doubt there's been a dull moment yet. A few disappointments yes, but they are expected.

But wow...how my life has taken so many changes this summer. It's definitely dividable into chapters of what I'd like to think would be an interesting book...story of my life lol. This last chapter of my summer has been the most intriguing by far. The people I knew here on internships have for the most part ended and left. Some I won't see again...but most have already gone back to SLO. That is where I need to be, but at the same time I don't want to leave this place yet...not yet.

So the last chapter begins with the beach house. At this point I have made a new group of friends that have helped shape me and learn more about myself...in a sense...the hard way lol. And I have now had my immersion into an official party person label that I need now get myself out of. You know...the kind where weekends start on Thursday and don't end until Monday morning lol. But that's because I am living moment to moment and don't have to worry about work or school. It lasted all of two weeks that I could afford lol. I added more guys to my interest list and had my first dilemma of actually liking more than one guy and not knowing which one I liked better. Hehe it was more of something fun for me. I'm leaving the area so it's not exactly like I could let myself get attached anyways...although I wouldn't let that cancel out future options lol. Anyways...

I've become really really good friends with one of the guys, almost to the extent of dating, but not really. We wouldn't work out. We're not each other's types. We don't share a lot of the same dating ideas or personality traits...although that might have been a recent change for me over the summer. But it's turned this into a unique friendship. Someone I like, but don't at the same time? Haha hmmm. Guess you can say I've very fond of my new friend. I had two friends like that in SLO...they were so close and did everything together you'd think they were dating...but they weren't and I couldn't figure out how that worked. Now I understand lol. And I love it.

As for the others, I think I've finally shifted to one. I mean, it's obvious, but for now I'm just having fun. I'm leaving the area, so I want something that will at least last with my final wave goodbye...and friendships last. So that's all I got for now.

Panda Express last week gave me a fortune that said this..."Prepare yourself for life-altering changes in your personal life". Don't think I'll be taking this little fortune cookie lightly ever...whether it came now (appropriately), or even any time in my future. My life is definitely changing constantly...and definitely never dull. :)