I've been told that I don't see things as they are. Unfortunately for me, they are wrong and I see things clearly and they look very bleak at this time. Well, I guess that some of it is through a fog. But either way, I like to think that I can see things as how they can be. Gives me something to look forward to I guess.
And it's not easy all the time. Right now I'm having a hard time dealing with my distance from everything I know. Part of the reason I left was to distance myself from it all, but it's not easy from my end. Sleeping on floors, working all day instead of being outside, coming home to emptiness, nobody to make plans with, nothing to look forward to except work the next day...I'm having a hard time seeing the things I should be appreciating. I know there's a lot. I guess I can give it a try...
Going to Starbucks to talk to my new friend that works there. He takes takes time to chat with me every once in a while which is nice because we don't even really know each other lol. Well...even though I sleep on the floor, I have a room, and a house. And even though the cats are attached to me and follow me everywhere...at least the like me and make me laugh. I have a job that maybe I'll like a lot more after I get my paycheck. I have a lot of friends here that I should take the initiative to do things with, but just haven't yet. I have a window office, which some people who have been working here for years don't even have. I have God and my bible which comforts me every night I fall asleep feeling so alone. I have access once again to my gym of choice which isn't too far away. I live near nice neighborhoods, hillsides, and lakes. I have a car that works, pictures of my best friends around me, two arms, two legs, I can see, and I have ears to listen to music when I work. Wonderful friends from home and home home who talk to me when I want someone to talk to. And this bag of chips that is keeping me from starving right now lol. I guess I have a lot to be thankful for.
Hopefully the loneliness and missing home and thecomforts and friendships there will pass. Soon.
About Me
- Miss Michelle
- This blog is because I like to write. Not necessarily for the world to know what's going on with my life, but it seems to play out that way so I roll with it because...who would want to read my life anyways?! Haha I'm just an ordinary girl with too many words. If for some odd reason you find yourself here, be prepared to listen to heartache, dogs, water, fish, pie, chalk, traveling, and whatever on earth musters up across my mind. The question then becomes..."What do you blog about Michelle?"
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