Looking back. Looking forward.

So. Once and again. Sometimes I think my life should be made into a book. Then I think about it and I guess everyone's life can be made into a book really.

Anyways, my own thoughts tend to wonder about things like why I write in these blogs. Do I really expect anyone to read it? Do I even want anyone to read it? It's a place where we can be honest, but how honest would I really want to be? I guess in a sense it's not a place to lie really, but there's always something untold lol. In my blogs, well...I love to write my thoughts I know that. :)

It'd be cool to write a book someday. A story to get lost in.

I want to travel. I've discovered a life beyond school and work.

Honestly, I look very forward to the day when I settle down and marry someone I love. It's not really just being in love that's going to catch me though. I believe I can love more than one. I can attest that there is one that I will always love (though not in love) even though I believe he won't be mine. And that's okay. But someone who's going somewhere in life. Loves adventure. High standards for himself. Optimistic. Makes me laugh...that's the easy part lol. Sigh...I dream of being a hopeless romantic. But I'm not stupid. I'm learning how people work. Nobody is perfect. And God knows I make mistakes. Sigh. The best I can do is to not judge. My hope is that I will not judge you because it is not my place to do so.

Until then, I am free and will be free-spirited while I can. I'm gonna travel and meet people world-wide. I'm gonna bring people together and help out those I can. Show this world love...perhaps not romantic, but everyone needs genuine kindness. I'll surf Costa Rica and climb Mt. Fuji and backpack across Europe and New Zealand. I'm gonna ride a horse across grassy plains and live. Perhaps I'm running from something...I'm really not sure. But I'm going to have fun doing it.

What I'm scared of most...a full-time job I do not enjoy and heartbreak.

Sigh, why these random thoughts? So much to think about. And I believe I just inherited an estate. Life changed once again. Sigh.