Deafness

Well it has been a different week than usual…not that any week is ever the same for me. I’ve pretty much been walking around with a “hearing disability.” Quite frustrating really, not being able to hear out of my left ear because it is plugged up with wax. And instead of my other senses being heightened (probably because I’m not deaf, but all of the sounds come from one side of my head, and are muted on the other side…plus I hear everything inside my head lol), my sense are all garbled and I just get confused. I’m more tired and antisocial lately too. Probably because I might be getting a bit ill and burnt out. And I don’t talk as much because I can’t gauge how loud my speaking level is. I feel like I’m talking really loud at times and other people look at me confused and go “What?” Grr…I want this to go away! I’m getting to a point when people talk to me and I just nod and smile even though I don’t know exactly what they are saying. I’ll catch some words and spend a few seconds afterwards trying to piece it together and fill in the gaps into something that makes sense.