1 Corinthian 13

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

• Patience is tough.
• I can be kind, but am working on consistency and quality.
• I envy. That's not good.
• I don't know if I boast.
• Can't say I'm proud of it. I've been called pathetic. That hurts.
• I try not to be rude and keep my mouth shut.
• Oh indeed I am self-seeking...sorry.
• Not angered. More of saddened.
• I've already forgotten all the reasons I didn't like him.
• I don't delight in evil. I would never sabotage or hurt anyone. I'd almost always rather take the fall.
• I trust too much.
• I hope too much.
• I persevere too much. It doesn't work to my benefit.

When will it go away? How do we keep God's perfect love? Why do I feel like trying to love like Him kills me inside. God lead me.